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So after the gym,  I went to Kristis house.  We had burritos and she made me watch a break up movie.   It was cute.  I cried.   Not really what i needed in my head before sleep.   My confidence is a little more shaken than it was earlier.  

I think part of why I haven't told anyone is because I'm embarrassed.   And also I dont want them to think weird of you.  Which is strange,  because I don't think there's anything to be embarrassed about,  or to change people's opinions of you.  But those holdovers from previous relationships can be hard. You know that.  

Okay.  No more selfpity and wallowing.  That's not why I started this. 


I way overslept, so not a lot of time for chores. Darn. 

We started this last Friday, but I haven't seen you since last Tuesday, so I guess that's something.  When you come home, I don't want to do this again. 

I started my biotin again.  I hate my hair.  

I watched a show with George Lopez about superstition,  and I want to go get a VouDoun head washing. Maybe I'll go to New Orleans soon.  

Honey mustard porkchops


Off to work. Like a chump. 

I am so tired of throwing these trucks.  Doubling down on real estate tonight. 

I can't make my mom understand that she can't text you, and I'm so sorry.  Like,  she just wants to help.  

So I had a weird moment of 90s nostalgia and looked up Delia's catalogs from when I was in high school.  God.  I wanted all those outfits.  I still might.  

https://deliascatalogs.tumblr.com/catalogs

Kain asked if I had a resume to pass out to the people recruiting him at other spots.  I might let him.  

***
I'm home.   


Didn't finish last night.   Too many callouts.  Probably gonna get my ass kicked when I go in tonight,  but I've reached a sort of zen about it.  

I miss you,  my love. Gonna try and sleep. 

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